Kind of really sucked. Have you ever had one of those days where you feel like you’re just going through the motions of your routines and plans but in the end feel like none of it was worth it? In the end you just feel tired without the satisfaction of having a productive or fun day, depending on what you did. That’s how my day felt. Just.. Reading. Class. Reading. Class. Reading. A 1hr break for Glee. 3hr meeting for NSLS. More reading. And at the end of the day I feel like none of it was really productive or worthwhile. Didn’t really help to talk to Stuart either, it just made me feel even more like it was unproductive and a waste of time. I understand I described everything in vivid, negative light but that’s just how I get. I don’t need someone reinforcing my unhappy thoughts. It just makes me unhappier and even more unsure about the way I spend my time with schoolwork, classes, and extra activities that I probably don’t even benefit from. Like my judgment of how I proceed with my day to day is way out of whack. It makes me feel like I’m probably better off reverting to my hermit ways of last year. It’s day 3 and I’m already tired of it all.
Damn, and I STILL got work to do!
This large male white Bengal tiger named Odin simply loves to dive underwater to fish out meat. His diving skill was discovered by his British trainer Lee Munro one day when a lump of meat fell into the pool and Odin gladly jumped after it. The 10ft long cat is living at the Six Flags Discovery Kingdom Zoo in Vallejo, near San Francisco. While most big cats wouldn’t like to even be near water, Odin enjoys every second of it while the zoo visitors are watching him through glass walls and taking photos.
RAWRR! Whatta beast!!
Not even be here! I wish I was sleepy so I could stop being boooorrrreedd. Oh well, it’s 11! Jon Stewart and Stephen Colbert!
- Dr. Seuss
So.. I started going through my external hard drive and found a record of old texts from when Stuart and I started going out.
Wtf, puppy love? Why you gotta be so fucking cute compared to 2yr old comfortable relationships? Fah!
Interesting… sort of.
I woke up from a sore throat that was absolutely irritating! And it was only about 1030 or 45 so I proceeded to go onto Reddit on my phone since I didn’t want to get up yet.
Then I checked my email and got something about FinAid. I realized I’m probably receiving more than I needed so I got my laptop out to log onto MyAid. After a few minutes of being sidetracked by Facebook, Tumblr, and Reddit I finally logged onto MyAid. It wasn’t helpful, just more confusing.
I then logged into my BofA account online to see if in the past year I ever got the remaining funds direct deposited to my account. I didn’t, but in the process of looking for that I found two charges to my account that I’ve never seen before.
Something like The Active Network Inc. charged me $13.40 twice and I had no idea wtf that was so I googled it and the second suggestion thing was “The Active Network Inc Scam.” Great. So I call Bank of America’s fraudulent activity line and dealt with it. So fucking aggravating! I found out that I had to go to the bank to get a temporary card until a new one is mailed to me. Being home alone and carless I decided I’d have to ask Stuart to take me however unpleasant it is for me to feel so dependent.
My dad called, though, and said he was coming back from his dentist appointment and was buying Yoshinoya for me and Stuart. So, I made him take me to the bank instead.
I got there probably at 150 and didn’t get helped until around 230. So annoying! Luckily, it went well. The guy that helped me was young, kind, and gay = awesome lol. That took about another 45 minutes-ish and then I waited for Stuart by hanging around CVS and Big Lots. ‘Twas boring. Plus side - I bought a new loofa, lol.
As soon as we got home at around 4 I ate the beef bowl that was waiting for me and Stuart played the Creeps on his phone. After I ate I sat and watched him play for a while. I thought about playing too but I was too lazy so I ended up laying on him while he played.
That got boring really quickly so I showered. When I got out it was already 530. I was like… wth, where did this fuckin day go?! I went back downstairs with my laptop and turned the TV on since Stuart was still playing the Creeps. I was bored but I didn’t want to stop him or anything. I killed another hour and a half on Reddit and TheCuteList and before we knew it, fuckin shit, it was already 7! So we left to go back to his place so he can go to Jiu Jitsu at 8.
So he’s there, and I’m here on his bed.. on Tumblr, typing out probably the longest post I’ve ever made. I wouldn’t be doing this if I wasn’t so strangely upset. It’s weird. I’m like.. a tired upset. I’m upset but I’m too tired to do or say anything about it. I’ll just be here waiting for something to change since I know if I said anything I’d probably just make something worse.
It just sucks that he’s going to Arizona on Friday-Monday. I wanted to go with him to Arizona this summer but he didn’t want to because he’s mad at the state and his tires suck. He’s going now because his mom wants to and they’re probably not going to take his car. They invited me but my parents are moving me in this weekend. They’d be super butthurt if I went off with Stuart and his mom for 4 days. But not only that, there’s no other day to move me in other than Saturday and Sunday! Stuart has his own car to take himself so I’m pretty much boned lol.
So since he’s leaving on Friday.. today, tomorrow and thursday are our last days together before I’m thrown into the unpleasant roller coaster I call college starts. Today was a complete waste of a day. Hopefully the next two are better but I won’t get my hopes up. We’re pretty broke. No money means no gas. No gas means stuck at home. Stuck at home means lots of iPhone games or GSN.
School might as fuckin well start already so I have something to do. I’m just not looking forward to the work and the wondering, “Wtf am I gonna do today?” “Where should I wander to today?” “Which group of ‘friends’ do I feel like being the ‘plus one’ for today?”
I’m hoping for the best for this year but preparing for the worst. I’m making sure to bring my PS2 and guitar with me this year. Hopefully, I’ll be so busy with a balance of studying and having shit tons fun that I severely neglect them. HOPEFULLY.
These amazing embryonic animal photographs of dolphins, sharks, dogs, penguins, cats and elephants are from a new National Geographic Documentary called “Extraordinary Animals in the Womb”. The show’s producer, Peter Chinn, used a combination of three-dimensional ultrasound scans, computer graphics and tiny cameras to capture the process from conception to birth. They are the most detailed embryonic animal pictures ever seen.
COOOOOOL!! COOLCOOLCOOOOOL!! x]
But didn’t this summer.
1. Disneyland - WHAT THE FUH.
2. Walk with Dinosaurs
3. See the Mummies
4. Go to the Getty
5. 500 Days of Summer Walking Tour
6. Visit Santa Barbara
7. Visit Arizona - to see Stuart’s family.
8. Go to Florida - more of a dream than a possibility though haha.
I think that’s it lol. Summer ends in a week. NOOOOOOO!!!!
Japan again. Europe again. I want to see more of Europe. I didn’t really get to appreciate it when I was there after 7th grade.
Why the last couple weeks of summer have been slow and lazy… Gas is fuckin expensive and the truck is a gas guzzler :( also, my bf always seems too lazy or tired for me to even ask to do other things. (sigh) Guess I’ll catch you some other time, 500Days walking tour. I might have to throw Disneyland in that list too. (even deeper sigh) Hey, Irvine…
Is probably the worst feeling in the world.
If you’re actually as interesting to your friends as they are to you? Or for that matter, if you’re they consider you a friend as much as you consider them to be? I know this sounds pretty sad but it’s that time of the month AND I’ve had a lot of time to think haha. And with school starting up soon, I’ve been thinking about what it’ll be like when I go back and see everybody I usually (or not usually) see. If you know me at all then you know last year didn’t go so great for me. Hopefully this year will be different. Hope for the best, prepare for the worst though, right? Ahhh, I hate feeling like I’m just wandering between groups of people!
Blahh I need to go to sleeep.